Autumn Equinox -- A realization about the Power of Theta

Last night I attended the Autumn Equinox celebration of the Temple of the Goddess in Pasadena. The Fall Equinox is the day of the year when the there is equal light and dark. It is a time of year when we think of moving from summer to fall, of our harvest, and of the coming winter. In this day of equal balance, the Equinox can be a time when we focus on the balance in the duality of our lives -- of young and old, birth and death, light and dark, intellect and intuition, male and female, animal and human, matter and spirit. That is just what the Celebration last night was designed to do. All events at the Temple are the Goddess are interactive. Last night we each brought fruit to the alter and received seeds (representing our dreams) to keep through the dark of the winter for germination in the Spring.

The celebration was filled with exuberant and beautiful dance, music that lifted and expanded the heart, and a story of a young man’s journey into the “middle place” to understand the dualities of life, dancing for all of us, a walk on the balance beam and lots of wonderful snacks afterwards. All of it designed to reach a thoughtful place within and give to the recipient exactly what was for them to contemplate.

For me, the part of the program that went deep, was a call and response poem, “I am the Gardner of my Life” written by Xia for the Temple of the Goddess rituals. I’m writing about it here, because I was so deeply touched with the understanding of how ThetaHealing have given me the tools to be the Gardner in my life. For one of the first times, I could truly and from a place of feeling the enormous power it gives me say, “I am the Gardener in my life.”

I am the Gardener of my life.
I plant the seeds of my desires.
I nurture the source of my dreams.
I am the Gardener of my life.

I am the Gardener of my life.
I plant the seeds of my desires
I cultivate the growth of all my hopes.
I am the Gardener of my life.

I am the Gardener of my life.
I plant the seeds of my desires.
I discard the weeds of fear and limitation
That would block my emergence into the light.
I am the Gardener of my life.

I am the Gardener of my life.
I plant the seeds of my desires
I water the commitment of my highest aspirations.
I am the Gardener of my life.

I am the Gardener of my life.
I plant the seeds of my desires.
I glean the lessons of my deepest growth.
I am the Gardener of my life.

I am the Gardener of my life.
I plant the seeds of my desires.
I harvest the fruit of my work and dedication.
I am the Gardener of my life.

I am the Gardener of my life.
I nurture and protect the seeds of my heart.
I create my world with care and intention.
I am the Gardener of my life.
Xia, Temple of the Goddess

In the last year, most of us have seen and heard enough about The Secret to be really tired of it at this point. And yet, its message is one that has been repeated down through the ages, “As you think, so shall ye reap.” Now, Quantum Physics verifies that. Science, God, Metaphysics, are all mostly on the same page. Sometimes is seems easy, creating that vision board, saying affirmations over and over, writing and praying the treatments, and sometimes the necessary actions of everyday life overwhelm and consume all available time. Our good intentions are left to be overtaken by the weeds in the garden.

Right at this moment I am seeing so many directions to take this piece of writing. Leaning back in my chair, looking at the brilliant blue of the sky, the yellowing walnut tree leaves, the cool breeze rippling through them bringing the feel of fall, I ask myself what do I say here? Where do I go with this? Stay on track, a little voice whispers.

Staying on track means speaking of what touched me most deeply last night when I heard the above poem. At last, after a path of over 30 years of seeking, I have the tools to tend my own garden, easily, quickly and with minimum effort. I can do it for myself; I don’t have to depend on someone else, a guru, teacher, therapist, workshop, self-improvement tape, etc. In 3 short days, I got the basic set of tools, in another 3 days, I received a more advanced set, and then all that was left for me to do was to use them. And I do, every day. It doesn’t take a lot of time and I can see instant results. And what's more important, I see the results in my friends and clients. If I feel, see or hear some part of me nagging or judging me or others, or a place where fear is holding me back, I can just stop quickly in the moment; look for the belief that’s creating these thoughts, clear it out as easily as pulling a weed from a garden. With ThetaHealing, I am truly the Gardener of my life. The rush of gratitude that I felt as I responded over and over, "I am the Gardener of my Life." still fills my being.